Reminding Myself Staying Home IS Important

Little Helper 'making dinner'

Sometimes I look at my life as a stay at home mother and think of all the roads not traveled. I think of all things I could have done, career choices I could have made, possible degrees I may have received by now. I have always been a big dreamer so I had many ambitions growing up. Sometimes I do get discouraged that I only have an associates, that doesn't get me very far. At times I deeply desire to create and wish I had been able to finish my Graphic Design degree and been more educated to make finished projects beautiful things. 
Sigh, the road not traveled. Each time I first meet someone new I am reminded that I am not a 'high achiever.' They have no idea what I went through that led me here, or what my life story would tell them about these decisions. Its concerns me, I feel like I have  to prove that there is more to me, even just to give the person a sense that I am intelligent and I have thought hard about the conscious decisions I have made. Interesting how people really do give me a sense that I’m doing less important things, or that I’m lazy because I stay home with my one child. 

'helping' sweep

I’m not going to try to argue that I work harder. I have friends who do all the housework and work a full time job. I am, however, realizing that what I do is important, it’s important to my son, and very important to my husband. I am a people person and yet I stay home most of my days, almost alone. My skills are people oriented and anything remotely creative, and yet I spend a lot of my time cleaning - a skill I never could acquire. Most of the time at the end of the day this optimist usually says “well, tomorrow I’ll be better at this.” Most of the time, everyday, I feel like I’m “bad at life.” 
I would much rather play with my son all day, do crafts, and decorate my house. It seems like mundane tasks get in the way, but they are important. And because it is a full time job to take care of the household with a toddler I GET to be with my little boy everyday! I can visibly see it on my husband's face, the relief he feels when he comes home to a clean or at least cleaner home. I heed to remember how the work I do allows my husband to get so many other things done. And he can spend more precious time with our son. I don’t need to prove the importance to anyone but sometimes I need to be reminded. 
Maybe I need to prove it to myself every now and than.

playing with daddy